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you; your momentary hatred for food will vanish instantly.
Your love for your favorite dish will immediately suppress
your temporary distaste for food.
This kind of alternating attachment and aversion for external
substances is caused by moha {delusion}. Attachment and
aversion are servants of delusion. They endlessly keep fighting
each other, and the jīva remains in thrall of them as long
as he is deluded. They ensure that the poor soul remains
unhappy at all times.

Understanding Samyaktva

How does the soul with samyaktva get tired of the push
and pull of sañsāra? It is a strong reason. All of us have
to bear the great burden of attachment and aversion. It is
then that some people ask themselves: Why do I have to
carry around this body? The ups and downs of life take
their own course. I have no say in that. Events take place
according to fate. So why should I get into the like / dislike
mode? Why should I let the circumstances of life determine
my happiness or unhappiness? I scorn such a life! Thus, the
soul experiences nirveda {absence of worldly desire}. He gets
bored with worldly life. Feels constricted by it. But he has
not yet conquered desire. So when the occasion arises, or
when a catalyst appears, those suppressed emotions rise and
rise until they gain the terrifying form of attachment and
aversion.
This is what happened in Sunanda’s case. Standing once
again at her balcony, she saw a couple making love. Her
dislike for the male of the species fell away. She began to
feel attracted to persons of the opposite gender. Now, her
heart was filled with longing. Since she had not taken any
restricting vows of sañyama {self control} her heart knew no
bounds. Her desire had awakened. Now she told her friends,
“If my mother raises the topic of marriage, please tell her
that I am ready.”
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